Wednesday, 24 June 2015

Vivian Moonshadow

Vivian was born a bit special, wise beyond her years, always alert, always seeing right into the people around her. This scared some people, made others think she was some kind of psychic. But she is not. For fun she sometimes told people what star sign they are. Why it worked most times she never really found out because honestly, she knows it can't be true. Why should people be who they are deep inside because they were born at a specific time? So she stopped doing that, because it scared her a bit. Though she will not admit it. She says it started boring her and was just a trick.
Vivian will never ever tell you her star sign. Or why there are some almost white hairs in her "mane". She is good at keeping her secrets but look keeping yours from her. 
I have my theory about her but they will remind just that. Mere theories. But I doubt she has more than theories about it herself.
I do know she is very proud, very confident, very "her". Ever since I met her (and that has been a while) she and I have never doubted who she is. She is also impatient (deep down I think that comes from her sometimes sensing what is going to happen anyway so she wants it to just happen so we "can get on with something else") and has a wicked sense of humour. She needs to be treated as a person and not as a child. Though she does love to be cuddled - but she will not initate it often.

you can find more pictures of her here:
https://www.flickr.com/photos/vergissmeinnichtkuss/sets/72157654823580982




Vivian Moonshadow measures about over 20 inches, she is my first sculpted doll. You could call her a prototype but I do not plan to sculpt many dolls as my more traditional style is something I could never give up. I enjoyed making her after letting go of my fears of failure first. Being my first she is by no means perfect. But those tug at my heartstrings most, like with "real" people, I am drawn to imperfections. I was surprised at who Vivian could have become, so many choices to be made and it took me a while to dare finish her because it felt strange to close the doors to her "parallel personalities" that could have been. I guess choices were harder knowing I will not make many "like" her so the closed doors will not be inspirations for a new doll but just be a little spark inside of Vivian.
In the end she became who I first envisioned (and me laughing at myself for ever thinking she could be someone else) but I love to think that some of the choices we didn't make are still buried inside her and if she loves her new home and trusts you enough, she will show you those as well <3
Vivian will be available auction style soon. I will announce details on my fb page as soon as she and I have figured it all out and I am sure I can let her go - not because I feel I have to protect her but because of all the time we spent together, my pride of how well my dip into sculpting turned out... Because it feels like a chapter will end with her.